Relink me………
Sry for the trouble okay!!!!!

Love,
Shan.

Repent.
The uncle was really nice & kind-hearted & understanding..
Repent.
I cannot take his forgiveness for granted,
he totally didn’t have the obligation to.
Repent.
No more making of this grave mistake.
Repent.
Bear in mind that my actions do affect others,
directly or indirectly.
It also reflects back to myself at the end of the day.
Repent.
I can decide whether I want a white paper with
a few black dots (be it intentional or unavoidable),
or to have the paper vandalized with ugly splotches.
Repent..

The only reason for me to smile now, is prolly Kait. Because of her arrival, I managed to shake off everything. I was so happy naturally for these 2-3 days. I could just observe her for more than an hour, just watching her sleep, admiring her actions & every lil’ thing. You know, it makes me wonder & realise, that one day, this innocent & sweet lil’ princess will grow up & she too, will have her own stories, her own experiences, etc. That she too, will soon go through all these emotional rides like any of us will. The joy, the tears, the sorrows, the pains, the laughters, etc etc.
But whatever it is, it definitely aint something to worry or even think abt at all now. She has the luxury of living in her small lil’ world, & just slp peacefully, receiving all the love from us all.

Let it go, let it flow, feel it completely.
But eventually, wipe ur tears
and tell yourself that,
I’ve felt the feeling of saddness completely,
its time to move on to feel and experience other emotions
-Tuesdays with Morrie.

read very long ago.
but ting just reminded me of this quote.

so, what now?
shld i? shld she? will he? shld we?

WELCOME BABY KAITLYNCHAIENTING TO THE WORLD!!
Kait Kait Kait, oh how i love your name!
you adorable lil’ thing,
wait for me.
for im coming for you in the evening!!!!!!!!!!

met my 2 khakis ytd
loveeeee seeing them.
caught Night at the Museum 2.
tho there were still funny scenes,
but it’s sorta like the 1st one.
so guess thr wasnt much surprises.
anyhow, we had Pastamania @ cheapcheap price **
plus free drinks. hohoho.
pasta + chilli padi (you can request) = rocks. HAHAH
off to trng next.

tdy, supposed to meet my khakis agn,
but was lazy to travel from Bukit Batok to PS.
then Plan B was for us to meet at night
go jog/cycle/bball,
but dear Jesley’s uncle came her hse.

Dad & I talked a lil abt it.
& I mentioned to Mummee abt it the day before too.
oh well. maybe it really will be better that way..

& tyc tempted me to go dbl o tonight(& YTD)

i so wanted to go.
i so wanted to drink.
i so had the hweel.
& i so needed to go have some fun.
buttttt.
no strike 4D leh.
altho dbl o damn cheap only,
but still.
this is call self-control.
HAHAH. soon soon.

“I do hope you’re able to realize that
even though things look cloudy right now,
they’ll get better soon.
Just remember that
it takes rain to make rainbows,
lemons to make lemonade,
and sometimes it takes difficulties to make us stronger and better people.
If you hang in there,
you will see that the sun will shine again soon …
you’ll see.”

-Khoo, who quoted from somewhr else!

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Results out.
bad.
very bad.
ultra bad.
atrocious.
whatever you can think of.

okay. if you so wna know, i’ll tell you straight.
so pls dont come & ask/nudge me anymore.
sry, but thks.
GPA dropped from 3.89/5.0 to 2.88/5.0
& that leaves me with the average of 3.38/5.0.
in case you dont know, it’s counted bad.
with everyone ard you getting 4.0 & above,
& a lot getting over 4.5.
so sad but true, uni is like this.
you judge your standard this way.
it’s not just abt whether you pass or is able to proceed to Year 2.
it’s my fking honours we’re talking abt here..

no pt being emo over it.
but it’s unavoidable to be sad right?
it ain’t wrong to let the tears flow right?
but ultimately, it’s over.
no pt, really.
of course i know.

but f.
if i didnt study hard & i get this kinda shitty results,
i wouldnt give a damn.
it just feels damn sucky now.
cause i know the amt of effort & hardwork ive put in.
the result just totally dont justify.
i dare say that i’ve studied as hard as possible.

so what’s the bottomline?
blame noone, but myself.
for being, simply dumb.
or for simply, being dumb.
it’s in the nature. you can’t change it.
trust me, am not even emo-ing over here,
just stating a fact.

& so, what to do now?
try agn next sem LO.
what else?

You know, I’ve always admired those families with frequent
“family days” like a meal together at the restaurants,
or even a simple family outing to the Spore attractions,
to the shopping centres, or even a movie trip.
& all the family members
are so close to one another, & talk & laugh about anything under the sun.

I think the last time my family went out on an outing together,
was to the zoo when I was in Primary 3?
I really don’t recall any such occasions after which..
No movie trips, no luxurious treats, no Kbox/Partyworld, etc.

Don’t misunderstand me,
I’m very close to my Mum actually.
It’s just that, perhaps what I can say is,
my family does not have the tradition of such
“quality family times” together, or whatever you name it.

So, “The Things I want to do with my family” may actually seem very simple & maybe cliche,
but it is something which I do not really see the chance of happening anyway..

In any case, a perfect Sunday for me.. Let’s see.
(cause Sunday is usually labeled as Family Day, isn’t it?)

Firstly, we’ll all wake up in the morning,
let’s say, like 7am?
& then we’ll go for a morning exercise together!
ALL of us!

Oh, I forgot to introduce my family members.
They are:
Mummee, Dad, Sis, Bro-in-Law, & of course, ME!
& also, the latest addition to our family soon,
(LIKE, NEXT WEEK!!!!!)
Kaitlyn, my dear princess niece.

Okay, so we can go for jogs around Woodlands estate, trekking,
cycling, swimming, gyming or even the Big Walk events
held monthly in my neighbourhood.
Don’t you think it’s really cool to see the whole family jogging together?
HAHAH, a lil’ funny though.

I really think that frequent exercise is important,
& I really do like the idea of all my family members
keeping fit & staying healthy TOGETHER. ;D

Well, after which,
would be a nice breakfast together.
There is no need for expensive breakfast,
heck the Swe*s*n’s/Delifr**ce, etc.
Just a simple meal at the coffee shops, hawker centres,
or perhaps Macs would be good enough for me.

Over at breakfast,
we can talk & share about anything that happened to us
for the past week, our thoughts, etc.
Quality family time, is what I yearn for.

Then, we can head home, for a shower.
& perhaps some nap time.
HEHEH.

So what do we do for the rest of the day?
Perhaps,
we can just rent some VCDs home to watch together;
go for shopping trips;
visit the Spore attractions,
like Sentosa, Zoo, Spore Flyer, the various Museums,
etc, etc;
movie @ the cinema;
food-hunt! (like being the food critics for all the supposedly famous food );
or even a day trip to Msia.

We’ll end off the day with a home-cooked dinner.
I’ve always love home-cooked food,
especially Mummee’s.
Sis & I will help Mum in the preparation,
(let the ladies take charge!)
& then once again, we’ll all sit around the small table of ours,
& enjoy a simple meal together.

Well well, that’s the things I want to do with my family.
Tell me, it ain’t demanding at all, right?

But such a simple wish,
appears as a beautiful/perfect scenario to me,
something which I’ll always picture in my mind,
yet wonders when will it ever happen.
The exercise regime itself will be totally impossible actually.
Due to the laziness of my other family members,
& also due to health issues like Arthritis (hence no strenuous exercises)

Oh, to add on,
I will really love to see the family going on an overseas trip together.
None of us has traveled on the plane for holidays before!
Dad has taken the plane before,
but in his army days. HAHAH.
Ahh, how nice it’d be…………!

Alright, so why did I write a whole post on
“the things I want to do with my family!” ?
Basically, it’s a contest which gives me the chance to win myself
SEVEN tickets to bring my family members
to one of these:

1) Singapore Flyer
2) Singapore River Cruise
3) Rhino Tour
4) Hippo Tour
5) Hippo River
6) Chinatown Heritage Centre

;D
& guess what?
you can take part too!
have fun blogging about
the things YOU want to do with YOUR family!

“Start planning for your own Family Day Out on 30 May 2009! Visit www.nfc.sg!”

If you dont wna sink, you better figure out how to swim.

okay so tmr is the fifth day which is also the last day
@ RobinsonsCentrept!
The job is frankly BORINGSHITZ.
the 3 of us, V, M & I were totally bored like shit.
basically our job scope was to give out the gifts that
the customers are entitled to redeem.

Anw, our products are Lancome pdts.
where those aunties spent 400, 500bucks,
like how i spend my 4, 5 bucks.
maybe 40cents, 50 cents.
SERIOUS.
dont utd how can one spend like 940 on the beauty pdts?!
okay maybe am just being a sour grape here..
but still, got money also not to be spent like this, right?!
like you spend 2, 3 hundred maybe still acceptable.
i guess its too early for me to comment.
maybe i’ll turn out to be one of them in 30yrs time,
we’ll never know. HAHAH
i’d definitely wish that i’ll have the capability to do so,
even tho i may not choose to. ;D
But currently, the few hundreds = damn lot & useful & meaningful to me.
& i feel that they could have been put to better use……………
for example, DONATE TO ME. HAHAH

(that 2 small gold bottles are the Absolue series & these 2 small bottles cost $250 each……)
cmon, let’s be Taitais too!
& then & then, in such a small area,
we could see the politics going on,
arrows shooting here, thr, everywhr.
damn obvious.
but the 3 innocent us,
just kept quiet & didnt wna get involved. ;D
but in general, they’re all still q nice ppl afterall.
or maybe its just my nature to always try to see the other side of ppl,
instead of merely being blinded by the bad side we see..
& J is damn pretty!!

IN ANY CASE,
TMR IS THE LAST DAY OMG DAMN GLAD SERIOUSLY.
it’s really really a waste of time.
& then it’s so strict, you cant use your phone,
you cant drink water OPENLY,
blahblahblah & whatsnot.

& not forgetting that LAONUREN,
who is somehow the supervisor or what shit for Robinsons.
seriously, typical OLDVIRGIN face.
oh, so thr may be stalkers somewhr out thr,
the internet is powerful, blah.
but seriously, heck.
Hi stalker, if you believe im saying abt you,
then maybe you’re right.
so it’s like standing thr for 8hrs(kay 7 if you exclude break),
& uh minus the time whr i’ll always find a place to sit……..
& REALLY, it’s really boring & boring & BORING.
the only interesting thing was perhaps observing(&gossiping abt) the other staffs
over at Estee, SK II, Bobbi Brown, etc etc…….

YES AH! LAST DAY.
kjdghjkdgnjdkgndkj.
LAST DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
which means i need another job, like NOW!!!!!